The doctors coming at you with their knives and all, then the scream and then the darkness…The water cascading down your back and you try to wash it all away. Try hard as you may, you still feel dirty, the top of your skin tingles from irritation. You press the sponge to your skin and scrub as hard as you can, till your skin begins to bleed and the bathwater turns red, after a few minutes you are still there and the pain comes all back! Your hands are full of blood (Isaiah 1:15)…
Does this feel like something you are going through at the moment? Then this article is for you. You felt this was the right decision you could ever make, to make the situation right again. Your friend, Parent or the guy that promised you marriage, promised you it will be all better after the abortion and soon enough you found out that it was a lie. It wasn’t alright at all.
The circle begins. This is the time that nobody told you of. The period after the deed is done. The questions start swimming in your head “Why did I do this?”, “Am I going to be the same again?”, “Who would ever want me?”…and then comes condemnation knocking on your door “I am worthless”, “God would never love me anymore”, “I am doomed for judgement”, “I would never marry and have a good home” and the list goes on and on.
Pause!!! Beating yourself down with condemning thoughts hasn’t changed anything so far! In fact it probably has added more to the challenge already.
The trick of the devil is to hold you down through condemnation, fear, doubt, low self-esteem…If you have confessed your sins to God, He has forgiven you and he has given you a clean slate. Who are you to remember what God has forgotten?
1John 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Romans 8:1 makes us to understand that there is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. Run out of condemnation by walking into the waiting arms of Jesus Christ.
The Lord is waiting for you with his arms stretched out, just like the parable of the prodigal son. Heaven would rejoice to have you come home. He is saying to you come irrespective of who you are, we can reason together and everything will be alright again.
Isa 1:18 Come now, and let us reason together, saith the LORD: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.
You can still get up! The story of the woman at the well side shows that Jesus Christ still has Mercy on even the most despised, on those who have given up on themselves. He forgave her but there was one instruction he left with her.
John 8:11 …Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go and sin no more.
Jesus Christ is saying the same to you daughter of Zion, I do not condemn you even if the world does, go and sin no more. Do you know how precious you are? In case you are thinking that you have never aborted, I ask you, what about those dreams that were placed in your heart? What did you do with them!
Heb 12:1 …let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us…
We can take our queue from the life of Paul the apostle. Paul was one person that should have being moving around with his head buried in the ground. But here in this scripture he charged us on moving ahead and I ask that you do same.
Phi 3:12 Not as though I had already attained, either were already perfect: but I follow after, if that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended of Christ Jesus.
Phi 3:14 I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.
If at this moment you are thinking of going through this gory process of abortion, here is a piece of thought “abortion is just a temporary solution”. Remember the spiritual and medical effects of abortion. Like TD Jakes would say Woman thou art Loosed. Play!!!
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